Meds and Memory

I have decided that I really need to see about coming off my anti-d's. I think I have got to the stage now where I am feeling a lot better in myself, more able to cope, and I feel that they are effecting my thoughts and decision making.

For example, when my little girl had her 'drop' I just held her and soother her while she cried, checked briefly for any bruises and bumps on her head, and carried on. Last time she was 'dropped', after the bump/bruise checks, I stood her up to check her legs and that she could hold her head up! That is what you are supposed to do after all. So why not do it this time? - Bad memory affected by my pills... And when my husband was writhing in pain the other night, all I could say was 'if you are going to be sick can you go to the bathroom' as I would be the one left to clean the mess! And as he moaned and groaned in bed, I just wanted him to shut up so I could sleep! How bad is that! I would normally be all over him, making him comfortable or taking him to A&E! Again, strike of the meds, dulling my senses and feelings.

So I am going to see the doc when I am due my next batch, in about 3 weeks, to see about de-creasing and coming off...I want to be me again, whatever 'me' is...