feel like I am going insane.... :o0

AAAAARRRRRRHHHHHGGGGGG!
If doing that out loud all day would help, right now I would do it. but it won't, it would just get me carted off to an asylum! I seriously wonder if I am slowly going insane...

My mum is now not going to get divorced...arggghhh! They are going to give it time to see what happens, he says he wants no one else, is selling the flat and giving her half, and will eventually move down here as she is settled here. Urgh!!!

Hubby got drunk last night at a friends, called me at midnight to ask me to go pick him up, so after getting ready and standing deciding how I was going to get 2 kids into the car whilst one was asleep, I get another call 5 mins later, saying ignore the last message, I will be home in 10 mins... So go back to bed...10 mins later, no sign, so call....ring ring ring...no answer.... this goes on for an hour, and I figure he must be walking home....or is in a ditch somewhere. I am soo tired that I fall asleep on and off, and then decide if he doesn't answer when I call at 2.40am I am going to call the police....Where is he....outside, asleep, in his car!!!!! ARGH!!!! Seen the car this morning, as I got nothing out of him last night, except to say I had to take the kids to school, and he has scraped the back corner bumper, and there is sand on the front bumper and grill.... I drove his route to see if I could figure out what has happened, but can't see any sand... think he is stirring...so should find out now....

I think I am going to have a breakdown soon! My head just can't cope, I can't get motivated, I feel so tired all the time....I just feel crap...