Feeling a little better after my last post. It definitely helps to get it all out! My sister has had her baby too yesterday, which is wonderful, though she is mad for not taking an epidural when the doc offered one, and pushing for over an hour!!! Thankfully, she has only had to stay in 24 hours to make sure she is ok, poor mite pooped for Britain apparently! And my sister has stitches....should have gone for the epidural!! She has said never again, but don't we all after giving birth?! I have contemplated this, as there is no way I could go through the pregnancy/birth/depression ever again, but I do still get broody...must get him in for the chop!
Anyway, after doing miles and miles of walking, I am beginning to feel a little more fitter, I say a little as when I walk up the huge hill to my son's school, I can make it to the top now without having sweat pour down my face, rasping for breath! Still have some heavy breathing, but I am getting better!!! Only need to lose 1.5lb to have made it to 2 stone lost, though from my sneeky peak on the scales I have gained this week, so my joy may be short lived!
I am contemplating finishing decorating the bedroom.....and planting the still un~planted pansies tomorrow, though at this rate they will all have died by the time they get into the garden as they are all in bloom in their polystyrene carton sat on our plastic garden table in the back garden! Oh well, they do look nice anyway, even if no one else gets to see them!
Must get some sleep or I will never get all my jobs done, and end up back in the throws of gloom and despair!
Tuesday 20 May 2008
Friday 16 May 2008
Depression or Life?
This is my recent contemplation.
Am I still depressed, after a year on antidepressants for PND, or is this just the way I am, having crap days where I don't want to do anything, which can become weeks, then suddenly I have the burst of energy and everything is rosy?
Is this my life? Sure, everyone has bad days, and maybe I am just someone who has more than most, and I should just get on with it.
Haven't wanted to do anything for the past 3 days....went to bed early last night, and still didn't want to get up this morning...I have a pile of ironing which I must do today, which isn't too bad, I can cope with that, but the decorating needs finishing in our bedroom, the landing still needs doing, the bed needs changing, kids rooms need tidying, still haven't planted the pansies in the front garden, and I just can't face it all. It's enough to get myself organised to figure out what to make for tea, pick eldest up from school, and try to keep 1yr old entertained....is this life?
Am I still depressed, after a year on antidepressants for PND, or is this just the way I am, having crap days where I don't want to do anything, which can become weeks, then suddenly I have the burst of energy and everything is rosy?
Is this my life? Sure, everyone has bad days, and maybe I am just someone who has more than most, and I should just get on with it.
Haven't wanted to do anything for the past 3 days....went to bed early last night, and still didn't want to get up this morning...I have a pile of ironing which I must do today, which isn't too bad, I can cope with that, but the decorating needs finishing in our bedroom, the landing still needs doing, the bed needs changing, kids rooms need tidying, still haven't planted the pansies in the front garden, and I just can't face it all. It's enough to get myself organised to figure out what to make for tea, pick eldest up from school, and try to keep 1yr old entertained....is this life?
Tuesday 13 May 2008
Another week...another problem!
Well, I gave the Argos card some hammer...bought weed cover mat, stones - 5 bags for one small area! 5 plants to put through the mat: a Calla Lilly, daisy plant, two carnations, and some green leafy type plant, solar lights, and some pansies to go in the front garden. Then Two tins of paint, and I had to go back for more stones as I had only got 2 bags 1st visit, so decided to sand down some old draws and paint them black and put new handles on...so got that, brushes, rollers, masking tape...think that was all! And in two days I weeded the back patch, laid the mat, cut holes and planted, covered in stones, set out the lights, masked out one wall to paint, did two coats, sanded the draws, painted the draws and attached new handles! PHEW! worn out and come down with a cold which seems to have attacked the kids too! So still have to plant the pansies and a little paint work to do, just go round the edges, and do a small wall that I managed to get paint on! Then the bedroom is done...unless I attack the wardrobe with the black paint.....only problem is my eczema on my hands is so bad I just want to cut them off!
Other news, just when you think no more, surely nothing else can go wrong in this family, bang, your sister decides she doesn't want to live and tries to OD. Think it was just a cry for help, as she called an ambulance, and could have done a lot more damage with the insulin my mum has in the house. So I am in two minds as to weather to go visit... She has said not to, and I have said she can come stay here for a while if it is all to much for her back home, but she doesn't want to. I think she is just confused, and in need of help, which hopefully she will get. Plus she has got to stop getting so drunk! Gone from one addiction to the other poor girl.
Anyway, as it stands, I will stay put for now, plus we have so much going on this week, hubby has his colonoscopy tomorrow, put it off twice already, and I am waiting for a washing machine to be delivered, as mine has given up spinning....clothes are piling up and I am beginning to think a trip to the laundrette is in order pretty soon! And then I have volunteered to man a stall at the school fayre this Saturday....I've been assigned the coconut stall! (Ironic with my life!)
Well, that's this weeks news, oh except trying to organise a surprise 50th for hubby, talk about stress. Will let you know more when I do!
Other news, just when you think no more, surely nothing else can go wrong in this family, bang, your sister decides she doesn't want to live and tries to OD. Think it was just a cry for help, as she called an ambulance, and could have done a lot more damage with the insulin my mum has in the house. So I am in two minds as to weather to go visit... She has said not to, and I have said she can come stay here for a while if it is all to much for her back home, but she doesn't want to. I think she is just confused, and in need of help, which hopefully she will get. Plus she has got to stop getting so drunk! Gone from one addiction to the other poor girl.
Anyway, as it stands, I will stay put for now, plus we have so much going on this week, hubby has his colonoscopy tomorrow, put it off twice already, and I am waiting for a washing machine to be delivered, as mine has given up spinning....clothes are piling up and I am beginning to think a trip to the laundrette is in order pretty soon! And then I have volunteered to man a stall at the school fayre this Saturday....I've been assigned the coconut stall! (Ironic with my life!)
Well, that's this weeks news, oh except trying to organise a surprise 50th for hubby, talk about stress. Will let you know more when I do!
Tuesday 6 May 2008
Has it already been a week?
Time seems to be flying! The weather has picked up over the weekend, which is always nice! Just got to sort out the garden now! Hubby cut the grass on Saturday, and I have already weeded the front garden, just got to get onto the patch in the back .... what to do! It's the place the cat always goes to do his business (yuck!) and has sprouted weeds...
Last year I grew veg...can't remember...oh, wait, it was Cauliflowers, which we only ate 2 of as they were crawling with creepies, and I couldn't handle them! And some spring onions, which were ok, but very very strong! And something else...think it was broad beans! My memory is shot! Year before I grew peas which were ok, and I did it the year before that, which were nicer, and sweet peas too that year. We also have a strawberry patch which we added to yearly, but hubby has gone over it with the mower this year, so no strawberries for us!
This year, I am not going down the veggie route. I am thinking of weeding, covering it with that great stuff you put down to stop weeds growing through, and putting a load of stones on top, and then maybe getting a couple of pots with some plants in to go on top....much easier!
Also planning on doing a bit of decorating....seeing as we have only decorated the hall since we moved in 4 years ago on the surmise that we would not be staying more than a year, two at the most! Got to face facts, and start living! Off to homebase to do some damage to the Argos card!
Last year I grew veg...can't remember...oh, wait, it was Cauliflowers, which we only ate 2 of as they were crawling with creepies, and I couldn't handle them! And some spring onions, which were ok, but very very strong! And something else...think it was broad beans! My memory is shot! Year before I grew peas which were ok, and I did it the year before that, which were nicer, and sweet peas too that year. We also have a strawberry patch which we added to yearly, but hubby has gone over it with the mower this year, so no strawberries for us!
This year, I am not going down the veggie route. I am thinking of weeding, covering it with that great stuff you put down to stop weeds growing through, and putting a load of stones on top, and then maybe getting a couple of pots with some plants in to go on top....much easier!
Also planning on doing a bit of decorating....seeing as we have only decorated the hall since we moved in 4 years ago on the surmise that we would not be staying more than a year, two at the most! Got to face facts, and start living! Off to homebase to do some damage to the Argos card!
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