Dial up is SOOOO slow!

After waiting the two weeks for my broadband to arrive, I rang to see where it was....there had been a fault and it would be with me in 5 days....5 days later and I call again....after waiting on hold for 5 minutes, I am told there was a fault, and it will be 21 days!!!! Why does this happen to me? So I tell them to cancel the whole thing and I will go somewhere else...how hard can it be to get broadband? 10-14 days. (better than 21!) So whilst I am still waiting for the wonders an 8mg-thingamy-jig can do, I am stuck with dial up... How did we manage before broadband?! You can't watch anything on YOUTUBE, it stutters and starts as it takes 45 minutes to load a 5 minute clip, and every page I open, well, I could write this out quicker than it took to get somewhere! Rant over...unless my broadband doesn't arrive!

Had a haircut yesterday, went bob style with a fringe, from shoulder length to chin (which one!LOL!) length. How come it never looks the same as when they do it after you wash it? Other half says it is ok, but he likes it longer and can't get used to seeing me with it short. Still don't know myself...

So far I have lost 6lb at weight watchers, and have bought myself 2 incentive dresses in the sale in size 16. I was trying to work out when I would get into them, and my head hurts from trying to work it out, but going on roughly 1lb a week, I am looking at summer 2009!! Bit longer than I had hoped...maybe I will beat it?!

Had a stressful day today, seemed to have been telling my son of every 5 minutes for something or other... School holidays, who invented them?! Think it is his boredom. Bought some flashcards to try and get him on with his alphabet, as phonics doesn't seem to be working. Asked his teacher about dyslexia, runs in the family, and he has the early signs, but she said it is too early to tell, and he is doing ok for his age...so we will see. She should know by Easter if he isn't up to the stage he should be, and said it isn't really until they are 7 you can tell....2 years to go!

Well, think that is my news for this week...all still full of cold, nothing new there and the weather is still freezing! Time to get the bed blanket out I think!

Ill again....

Just seem to get rid of this darn cold when it starts up again! 1st my little one got it then she passed it on to me and her dad....feel rough again. Seems to be nevereneding illness at the moment in this house.

Weightwatchers is going ok, only lost 1lb this week, think going out for two meals and eating MacDonalds while we were with family this weekend may have something to do with it! Hopefully will loose more this week, especially with being ill and not eating much!

My other half looked after the kids yesterday while I 'died' in bed, bless him he tidied up the kitchen, the best way a man can, and did the ironing! Took him the best part of 4 hours!! he did iron towels and underwear though, silly man!! Just got to get all the clean washing upstairs and put away now! Not a great holiday for him though, with us all being ill, and not much getting done. When I feel better it's time for a blitz I think! Front room is begining to look like a bomb site, given the kitchen a quick clean while I had a little relapse in feeling rough, so that isn't too bad, but need to blitz upstairs too.... oh well, it never ends.....

Weight watchers going well...

Managed to loose 3.5lb in my first week! Hoping for a good loss this week too as I was sick on Thurdsay and cosiquently didn't eat much!

Still waiting for my modem to come...so posts are few and far between. I am doing this at my mums as we are away for the weekend.

My little baby is now a toddler. She was 1 on friday. Due to being so ill on the thursday night and not feeling too bright on the Friday, I didn't have time to dwell on re-living the nightmare that was her birth, which is probably a good thing. The tablets also helped me thinks!

Going to see the doc next month about cutting back and hopefully getting off them in march... we will see...

Gotta go, too many 'visitors'!

You never know how much you will miss something...

Until you no longer have it....

My computer crashed on me at the beginning of last week. After trying to salvage it, I had to re-boot the whole system and start from scratch...all my documents...gone, all my photos...gone, every programme loaded...gone! Hence no posts until now...which has taken me an age to get online as I have had to go by cable....! How slow can you go............

Waiting on my new Internet connection to arrive in the next couple of weeks, to be broadband again...oh the joys of simple things! I have felt quite lost without my daily browse.....

I have also taken the plunge and joined weight watchers....can't believe how much I weighted....17stone 3lb! Doing very well...I think! sticking to the points and eating what I like, almost. I have felt hungry a few times, but trying to eat healthy snacks to push me on until it's meal time. Weigh in on Wednesday so I will post my loss... I HOPE! Aiming for a big loss with it being my 1st week...going for 7lb....think I will make it?! Only time will tell!

Well, off to browse...slowly as it takes forever to load pages!!!!!

Better day....

After yesterdays rant feel a lot better today. It does help to get it off your chest, even if no one ever sees it! And I am not feeling so ill either which helps.

Been blogging in my brain again at night, and came to the conclusion that I now call my little chats with myself, blogging! Great Eh? Or am I really as mad as that sounds?!

I think I must be someone who craves attention, but I am to scared to say 'HEY Look at ME!', or are we all like that deep down? We do everything for everyone else, and help everyone but when we need the help we don't speak up....

Anyway, I am waffling on about silly rubbish that no one ever gets to see...why do I do it? Answer, because it does help, just a little, to know that maybe one day I will look back on it and realise where I went wrong, or right, and maybe, just maybe someone will start to read my blog and not feel alone....

Ok, enough said, off to make bread....

Why is it.....?

My other half can make me feel so crap sometimes? I am full of flu, and asked him if he could get home early so that I could go to bed...not a problem he said. Come 6.30pm I decide enough is enough and ring to see where he is...snowed under at work 'but I will come home now'...oh thank you for putting yourself out....! After getting the youngest into bed and sorting out my sons tea as he walks in, I go to bed, only for my son to wake the baby an hour later. I feel too ill to even pick her out of the cot so give her her dummy and leave her for her father, feeling guilty. 2 hours later I hear my other half at work on the computer while the baby grumbles away in her cot...for at least 20 mins. I try to ignore it and turn over, but when I realise she is still crying, I get up to suggest she might want some milk...to find he is no longer at the computer and she is all alone in her cot.

I take her downstairs, and say I think she might want some milk and she has been crying for half an hour....'don't lie, I have only just put her down 3 minutes ago! She has been down here with me!' I pass her over and come back to bed, wondering if I am going mad (probably hallucinating or something with a temperature) and feeling like I am always wrong and maybe I should just leave.

Contemplate going to my mums with the kids, as obviously he can't handle me being sick, work and the kids, so maybe I should make it easier for him? I want to cry but I can't. Think the meds are working....

Is it only me....

Or do you have dreams that effect your whole day?

The other night I had an awful dream that seemed so real involving my other half, telling me I was too fat and unattractive and that he was going out to find someone else to sleep with...I woke in the night after this dream and even though I knew it was a dream I physically moved away from him in bed and felt so mad at him! Why is that? I have a few like that, where I get mad at him in my dreams and wake up mad with him in real life and can be cold towards him, yet I know it is nothing he has done. Why are we like this...or is it just crazy old me?

We are all ill now :( Little ones coughing like troopers and don't know what to do with themselves, and we feel like we have been in a boxing match and have a sore throat to boot. My sister is down and had a sick bug yesterday too, so we are all in a sorry state!